Finally I got baptize on Saturday morning and I just hang around that area so that I can go support the rest of my care group friends getting baptize. I expect heaven open or bright lights and….well you know special effects. Well I was thinking too much, but I did see Daddy and Jesus better and more clearly. I ask Pastor Gabriel for full restoration in every area.

The dear care group friends are all so fun loving, we took lots of picture and they even practice the dance while waiting for the girls to change. That day we had lunch together and at night I was out with Henry for dinner at Pastamania. To be honest my mind sometimes still goes back to that Saturday morning and I know something happen in that instant but I just do not know what was it. Everything happens so fast at that time and even though nothing happened, but still something actually happened and I don’t know what it is...yet.

Serving on Sunday was soooooo good that it makes me what to do even better. I am still wondering if my standard have drop or remain still, maybe I have not touch the mixer for too long or I am doing the same thing over and over till I did not see a difference. But that does not matter, what matters is everything I do I have to remember it is for Daddy’s people. The English service was good and I am actually looking forward to the DVD for the Europe Conference.

As usual after the service Ivan and I walked back to the MRT and we continue to chat about my baptism. Suddenly he told me that on the way to service, he ask Daddy what to pray for me and he felt a strong feeling of wanting to pray for something. That something is what I have been trying to figure out after the indoor service. That something is what I have been looking for and yet not found any words to describe it. That something was the word called complete.

He told me Daddy wants to complete my life by the end of this year, everything restore and whole again. He did admit that he found it amazing for Daddy to show him that, but he just prayed that for me. Ivan is such a dear brother to me and it seems to me like he knows me more than I know myself or more than the rest of my friends. Daddy has used him to pray for something I have been looking.

I really hope to find a life partner like that, who knows me more than I know myself and have wisdom of Daddy to know what I need in my walk with Him. That way my partner can also look to Daddy to have wisdom to know me and me to Daddy to have wisdom to know her. See how Daddy becomes the center of our relationship? It amazes me and with less than 100 days for Daddy to restore me to completeness seems impossible. But with man all things are impossible, but with God all things are possible.

After the baptism I told myself that I want to be more Jesus dependent and I am trusting Daddy to restore me to completeness. I know I don’t have much faith in this now, but I believe Daddy will reach to my level and lift me up. He will also send people to pray for me in this area and also to encourage me. Daddy, let me continue to lift my eyes on you and never look away.